And what about college?

I'll tell you what! It's not what I thought it would be. Brittany has a pile hair laying on her bed. And that's how I feel about that. I haven't done much partying, or hanging out with friends. But in a weird way, I'm kinda alright with it. It's funny how my dad thought I would transition to college the best out of the three of us, and end up being the one that cries every time I have to go back... haha. Once a big baby, always a big baby. I've come to find how unhealthily attached to my family I am. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it can be disrupting, when I start crying while doing my homework. But, I think I'll save the whining for another time. Being in college is one giant task to take on. But being on a college track team is a whole other story. I guess I never considered how much time I would need for homework, studying for exams, and maybe even a social life. But, track has already made those timely decision for me. Wake up, class, practice, eat, homework, bed... do it all over again. Although, I can't complain. I love it. I love being able to say I'm a college athlete, even if the Division 1 athlete title still doesn't feel real. I love the sense of accomplishment I have after a workout, especially when I thought I wouldn't be able to make my first two weeks of them. I got through it, and put my physical capabilities to the test. My asthma doesn't agree with the idea of it most the time, but its another challenge I have come to terms with. In the end it's all worth it. Throwing is something that shows me my results, my improvements, and even the cold shoulder. It's love and hate. But if I didn't love it, I would have given up a long time ago, back when I took myself to clinics once a week so I could get a college coach's help, back when I spent my weekends at the rings, and spent all winter lifting with the football team. I never had to do any of it, but it's my niche. And that's how I feel about that! In other news. I'm talking to a really nice guy for about five months now. We'll keep his name a secret for now, see how things play out. I don't get to talk to my friends much, but he's good at keeping me company, and making me smile, don't even need a reason. I remember when I used to say "oh, there's just something about him." But I can tell you what it is about him. He apologizes for no reason! It may seem silly, but for some reason, it means a lot. He apologizes for the littlest things, even when I wasn't that concerned about it to make sure I'm still in it. His laugh is infectious, smile contagious. It's not about the physical relationship. I'm not being used for my body. It's about his, and my personalities clicking, for whatever reason. I think we're both unsure about what's happening, or how it will. But I'm sure that the river will take us where ever we're supposed to end up. I don't care to push anything right now because on two separate sides of the state. But I have high hopes for summer, when we'll both be back home. I don't want to over think things though. We'll just see where we go :) But as for me, I need to head to bed. I have an 8 am in the morning... o.O And that's how I feel about that! Goodnight all, Love, lins.